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This is a different hunger

 

well my body said just turn and run
but then I felt the light of the sun
and the heart that I thought had just died
started coming slowly alive
we awoke in the mansion above
and call it love
- trevor hall, house
 
 
 
3.5 days of work.
 
1 day off.
 
 
5 sleeps until I leave for Haiti.
 
Where did the time go??

I am so nervous. SO nervous. I have been waiting to go back to Haiti for over 10 months.

10 months of anticipation, 10 months of fernweh ("an ache for a distant place"), 10 months of planning and dreaming, 10 months of anxiety, 10 months of planning and writing lists and worrying that I can't do this, but praying that I can.

And finally, we are almost there. And I KNOW I can do this. I was MADE for this. This is just the start of something new. I don't know what it is, but it's new and it's something!

I still feel like I have SO MUCH preparation to still do. But when I think about my list, it's really not that much. We'll just keep praying that my heart stays peaceful (which is not normal) and that my brain continues to function throughout my last few days here and in the airports (which is also not normal). We'll pray for wisdom, safety, guidance and continued provision. 

 
 
Amen.

This is a different hunger
Heavier than thunder
Satisfied by love
Love
- trevor hall, different hunger