You know the funny thing about social media??I get to choose what you see.I get to choose what you don't see.I have a hard time posting things a lot of the time. I know that no one needs to see more negativity. So a lot of the time, I don't post about my bad days, the sad things that happen. Or if I do write a post, it never makes it online.And the bad things that happen to and around me currently are really small in comparison to what I see elsewhere.I really shouldn't complain.And then nice things, or pretty things come along, and those are easy to post, so I just share those things.What a lopsided, only partially truthful view of me and my life.Friday, my beautiful, loving puppy, Luna, was put down. I never get to cuddle her or even see her again.Not a big deal, when the beautiful children of Haiti are starving. But my heart is broken.Luna loved me in the years of my life when I believed I was unloveable. She was the only one who was never mad at me. She was the only one who I KNEW had no conditions, or wanted to get something FROM me. I still feel like I have nothing much to offer other people.I am so thankful that I got to spend two whole weeks with her over Christmas. Morning cuddles almost every day.I know that it was the best choice. She was almost 9 years old, but developed diabetes that was not wanting to be controlled. She was almost blind. But still so happy and so lovely. Better that she went peacefully than alone in a house when her family was gone.Oh my heart.And I know my biggest strength and my biggest weakness is that I love SO much and SO deeply. Even a silly dog.Oh my heart.

I love you. Goodbye.

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