faithful.

Set the world on fire. The last month has not been an easy month.I am exhausted. I am constantly aching to be in Haiti. To be home. To be warm. To fit.I miss my brothers and sisters. I miss my babies. I miss my family.I miss feeling like I am working with a purpose.Being in Canada is SO HARD for me some days. I don't want this anymore. But I will be in Haiti for 3 whole months this summer.  The Lord is faithful. I have also started to realize how monumental the task ahead of me is.I don't know what I am going to encounter in the future. But some things are becoming real to me. There are a lot of ugly, painful things that will be part of my life soon, and forever. This world is so ugly and so so so beautiful. I know that I am not ready to live in Haiti yet. I know that I have a lot to learn before I can go and not come back. I don't even have words to describe or explain what's happening in my heart, or in my mind.Probably why I don't write very often.Also because I never know how church-y I should get. But that's kind of getting pushed to the side. 

If we are not overwhelmed by our assignment from God , then we don't see our assignment clearly.-Bill Johnson, Bethel Church Redding, CA (Poor in Spirit sermon) 

God is so good and so faithful. Sometimes it takes 4 years to see that all the sacrifice, and the frustration, and the grieving is  just part of God's goodness and faithfulness. The point is NOT to make things easy, the point is love. The end. I just want more Jesus.I want to see miracles happen.I just want to have church all day, every day.More of You and less of me.Mesi Senyé!

I am pressed, but not crushed

Persecuted, not abandoned

Struck down, but not destroyed

I am blessed beyond the curse, for His promise will endure

That His joy is going to be my strength

-Darrell Evans, I'm Trading my Sorrows

Mesi, Senyé.I honestly don`t know what else to say.No matter what comes, I know that God`s got my back. Even with everything that is in my future, I know that God has the strength and faithfulness to see me through. I don`t need to worry. He provides everything I need, and sometimes even things that I just want.

Who is this manwho demands such loyalty?Who is this humble Kingwho's taken all from me?- David Ruis, Lily of the Valley http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3ebJ4sfk7Y

For I know that You are faithfulAs I walk these fields of whiteLet Your kingdom comeYour kingdom come- David Ruis, Faithful

This is something Sacred

This is Holy ground

To come before my Saviour

Laying down my crowns

-Ryan Delmore, Sacred